Why'd you hold on for so long? ME asked Mama
Mahal ko e - what other reason do we have? Mama
ME am home for the long weekend to visit our dead and the living too - I guess.
Ganun ka-simple? Hindi ka ba nababaliw kaka-isip? ME
Kaka-isip sa? Mama asked while getting canned tuna from the grocery we were in.
When dad goes out for days or comes home late or when his excuses are not logical? ME answered
Where is this coming from - your questions? Mama
Uhmmm - from ME? They're coming from ME? ME joked
Boy trouble e? Mama
ME just smiled.
I got used to my doubts. Ganun lang yun - I learned to live with them and just focused on the good things. Mama said
Look, don't make your own ghosts son. Mama added when ME did not reply. And those doubts - they're gonna eat you alive like parasites do. So save yourself the trouble and just think of the good things.
Like what good things? ME finally said
Like he comes home to me despite. Mama started
Like the "good mornings," "good nights," and "have-you-eatens." ME added
Like the way he provides for you and our family. Mama
Like the time he always gives despite. ME
Like the fact that you have legitimate status. Mama
Like the way he attempts to make a valid excuse. ME
Mama and ME giggled a little on the last one.
There - go back to those things when you're not sure. And I know there's a lot more. Mama reiterated
I will Ma. ME answered back.
Okay. Now pay for our grocery. Mama demanded.
Ah, yun na pala role ko. ME laughed.
You are going to be ok. Mama looked straight into ME and concluded.
I know - anjan ka e. ME finished.
Mama squeezed my hand.
Home is really something...