It's getting worse. ME can't think of anything else but HE's possible indiscretion with J. Saw J post this:
'Masakit tawaging kabit! But is it my fault if he likes me? Siguro, he's happier with me - hindi naman siya maghahanap kung talagang mahal ka niya!'
ME never called J 'kabit' but with HE's apparent admission that HE's with ME (and J knows that) ME can't help but think something-something is going on - again. Even more, the post preceded a picture of a condom.
Bastos siya! P*&^%$%# niya - BASTOS SIYA!
ME wanted to confront HE again: Did you have s*x with J? ME started to SMS.
But ME didn't send it - ME promised HE to try not being paranoid.
ME's affording him all the benefits of a doubt.
But ME needed release and drafted a tweet: P*&^%$@#!+ mga kabit kayo!
Read the tweet again.
Sh*t, ME's part of that group.
What right do ME have to judge J when ME is exactly like him.
ME do not understand what or how to feel anymore.
Is this really the price ME have to pay for all of this?
But it is clear though - ME have two (2) options:
1. Get out! Leave and start anew.
And it is clear as well what ME is going to choose.
I need SHE.
I need my mom.
And I need HE most.