You've been here - countless times.
You know how it feels.
And you are well too familiar with the dilemma.
You understand - even empathize.
And I know too how I sound - trapped in a vicious cycle of letting-love and letting-go.
And at the back of both our minds, perhaps, we have expected this.
You were hopeful for something different, I was too.
God! I struggled.
Every. Single. Day.
But as the fates would have it - I'm back to were I left off.
I really did.
To have a different ending.
To be in a different place.
To fight another battle.
But all have lead me back to the same place - the same person.
You know how hard it is to run against the current - to brave against the direction of the wind.
I tried. More than you know, I tried.
And it left me empty.
It left me tired.
Perhaps I'm weak.
I'm just done...
I'm done fighting it.
I'm done fighting ME.