Of Wills and Shoulds

My Husband's Lover. It was a text from SHE

No, I didn't have anything to do with it. ME said when SHE answered my call.

Good. Pero ang galing ha, kuhang-kuha. Hehe. Ang universal pala ng sitwasyon natin. SHE

Gaga! Hahahaha. Pero, yeah, there is some comfort in the fact na hindi tayo alone on this. ME

We both laughed.

How are you? SHE asked.

Still in the process. ME

Hirap pa din ano? SHE

Oo - I've reduced all this to surviving everyday na lang. ME

You will get through this. SHE

And you will too. Alam ko you go through all this process again and again and again with every new guy. ME

It becomes routinary - the initial shock, the acceptance, the adjusting, the repeat. Siguro I'm way pass being tired - hindi na ako napapagod sa proseso, it just feels like its part of my system. SHE

It was the first time ME felt SHE defeated. Like there was no choice but to suck it all in. But ME was not to judge.

I would hug you right now if I can. ME

But you, SHE continued, you can still escape all this and not get stuck in the cycle I'm in. 

I will. I should. ME answered. We should do dinner this week.

We will. We should. SHE

Gaya-gaya! Hahaha. O, you pick me up after your Baclaran. ME

Hahaha. See you! SHE

Ang strong-strong lang ni SHE. ME said to myself.

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Here's to will and should!