I was the one that tried to understand you - albeit your complications.
I accepted all of you despite the questions I had.
I swallowed my pride for you.
I gave up on people to be with you.
I practically restructured my moral fibers for you.
I trusted your words.
I denied your lies.
I believed in you - more than you did yourself.
I was your number one fan.
I tolerated all your antics.
I was forgiving- every single time.
I was all you wanted me to be.
I was the good guy.
And I loved you.
Yes I did.
And you - you threw all that away.
For what?
Cheap thrills?
A tighter *ss?
Some perks you needed?
You have not changed like you said.
You are still the same self-serving, boy-hopping, insecure little man that you always were.
Boy oh boy!
You do have a way with words and you almost had me again.
But I'm not covering up for you this time.
I will not be your security blanket.
Your ego boost.
You don't deserve it.
You don't deserve to hurt a good guy again.
And you haven't deserved ME a long time ago.
So why don't you stick your finger up your *ss and go f*ck yourself.
Because that's what you are - a self-f*cker.
You are a mess.
So do the world a favor and fix your life first.
Stop messing with mine.
Besides, you have loads of takers - don't you?
Go to them.
Be with them.
Just get the hell out of my life.
-o0o-
HE and J are still together. And so is HE and another person from his province. And god knows who else.
And the nerve of HE to - argh!
I am just glad I didn't believe HE (again) this time.
Gawd! When will this end!
I wish I could drink some serum to erase every single memory I have of HE.
You d*ckhead!
