Suddenly, a vision of ME flashed before my eyes.
Do I want this?
This no-attachment-whatever-aside-from-the-physical kind of set up.
Will I allow myself to be used?
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He was cute - really cute and I knew then of another reason why I would specially attend to this class.
Sir, sorry po kanina. 12-000002 said when he approached me after class.
Sorry saan? ME
Sa pagiging late po. Tapos sa harap pa po ako umupo. 12-000002
Ah, well, don't do it again. Make sure lang 'di kita maunahan. ME
Okay po Sir. Thank you po. 12-000002
No prob - bawi ka na lang. ME
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Sir, paano po ako makakabawi? 12-000002 messaged in FB
ME was in one of the more boring meetings.
Bawi saan? ME
Sa pagiging late ko po lagi. 12-000002
Late din naman ako lagi sa class nyo, ang aga kasi. ME
Eh Sir buti sana kung nauunahan kita. 12-000002
Hmmmm - sige, do you want to attend na lang my PM classes? ME offered
Eh Sir may class po kami 'gang 5PM po. 12-000002
Hmmmm - my class ako ng 5PM pa. ME
Eh Sir may church practice po nun. 12-000002
Puwes, agahan mo na lang tlga. Hehe. ME
Hehehe, Okay po Sir. Thank you po. 12-000002
ME didn't reply after that.
Sir, my pasok po ba sa Sabado? 12-000002 messaged again.
Yup. Bakit? ME
Eh Sir, birthday ko po sa sabado. 12-000002
Ah talaga - happy birthday advance! ME
Thank you po Sir. Gift ko po? Hehehe. 12-000002
Something suddenly lit - a light bulb I think.
He was cute. ME pursued.
He was cute. ME pursued.
What do you want? ME
Joke lang po Sir. Nakakahiya po. 12-000002
Hindi nga - you asked me e - mapapahiya ako niyan. ME
Kayo po bahala Sir. kahit ano namin po pwede. 12-000002
Kayo po bahala Sir. kahit ano namin po pwede. 12-000002
Sige - I'll treat you dinner na lang. ME
Luto ka sir? 12-000002
Nakow - wala akong alam sa pagluluto. ME
Hahaha. Ganun ba sir? Ako na lang po - palengke tayo. 12-000002
Ngek - birthday mo tapos ikaw pa pagtratrabahuin ko? ME
Okay lang sa akin sir - basta sagot nyo pampalengke. Hehe. 12-000002
Oo naman! ME
Luto ka sir? 12-000002
Nakow - wala akong alam sa pagluluto. ME
Hahaha. Ganun ba sir? Ako na lang po - palengke tayo. 12-000002
Ngek - birthday mo tapos ikaw pa pagtratrabahuin ko? ME
Okay lang sa akin sir - basta sagot nyo pampalengke. Hehe. 12-000002
Oo naman! ME
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Tinola na lang tayo sir a. 12-000002 said - we were in the supermarket.
Sure - okay yan, sabaw. ME
At akala ko ba isasama mo barkada mo sa school? ME continued
Magugulo yung mga yun sir - nakita nyo naman sa class. 12-000002
ME really enjoyed goofing off at the supermarket and ME enjoyed more the cooking demo 12-000002 did at home.
Tinola na lang tayo sir a. 12-000002 said - we were in the supermarket.
Sure - okay yan, sabaw. ME
At akala ko ba isasama mo barkada mo sa school? ME continued
Magugulo yung mga yun sir - nakita nyo naman sa class. 12-000002
ME really enjoyed goofing off at the supermarket and ME enjoyed more the cooking demo 12-000002 did at home.
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Pwede mo nang palitan si Chef Logro. ME said after dinner while eating the slices of cake we bought - one lemon, one chocolate and a mango torte.
Haha. Salamat sir. 12-000002
12-000002 then stood up, went to get two glasses of water, he then sat beside me, gave me the glass and gave me the sweetest of smile and then kissed my cheeks.
Thanks sir. 12-000002
ME was stunned.
ME smiled, stood up and got another glass of water.
When ME turned around, 12-000002 was behind ME.
Paano ako babawi sayo sir? 12-000002 asked. He was holding my hip.
Gawd! My body wanted to move towards him but alas ME said:
Upo ka muna.
12-000002 sat on the couch and ME sat on the opposite couch.
Look - your a sweet kid. ME started. Pero you're in my class at hindi ko kayang abusuhin yun. ME finished.
Wala naman makaka-alam sir e. 12-000002 defended
Ako - alam ko. ME rebutted
Ayaw mo ba sa akin? 12-000002
ME liked him. A lot. ME think 12-000002 knows that too.
Alam mo sagot diyan. ME said.
Pero? 12-000002
Pero, its inappropriate. ME
Eh bakit mo pa ako ininvite sa bahay mo? 12-000002
ME smiled.
I shouldn't have. ME said
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I'm not a predator - that's not my profile. And I don't think I want to be that.
While I know a number who are (not just in school but at work) - I think I can sleep better at night knowing I have not used my position to my advantage.
Besides, I'm not one to handle a scandal.
It was wrong I invited him or pursued his flirting.
It was wrong that there was dinner.
I just wish I could have reflected on this prior.
So here's to self restraint, making responsible decisions, scaring yourself with a potential scandal and stopping while you can.
Pwede mo nang palitan si Chef Logro. ME said after dinner while eating the slices of cake we bought - one lemon, one chocolate and a mango torte.
Haha. Salamat sir. 12-000002
12-000002 then stood up, went to get two glasses of water, he then sat beside me, gave me the glass and gave me the sweetest of smile and then kissed my cheeks.
Thanks sir. 12-000002
ME was stunned.
ME smiled, stood up and got another glass of water.
When ME turned around, 12-000002 was behind ME.
Paano ako babawi sayo sir? 12-000002 asked. He was holding my hip.
Gawd! My body wanted to move towards him but alas ME said:
Upo ka muna.
12-000002 sat on the couch and ME sat on the opposite couch.
Look - your a sweet kid. ME started. Pero you're in my class at hindi ko kayang abusuhin yun. ME finished.
Wala naman makaka-alam sir e. 12-000002 defended
Ako - alam ko. ME rebutted
Ayaw mo ba sa akin? 12-000002
ME liked him. A lot. ME think 12-000002 knows that too.
Alam mo sagot diyan. ME said.
Pero? 12-000002
Pero, its inappropriate. ME
Eh bakit mo pa ako ininvite sa bahay mo? 12-000002
ME smiled.
I shouldn't have. ME said
-o0o-
I'm not a predator - that's not my profile. And I don't think I want to be that.
While I know a number who are (not just in school but at work) - I think I can sleep better at night knowing I have not used my position to my advantage.
Besides, I'm not one to handle a scandal.
It was wrong I invited him or pursued his flirting.
It was wrong that there was dinner.
I just wish I could have reflected on this prior.
So here's to self restraint, making responsible decisions, scaring yourself with a potential scandal and stopping while you can.
